Thursday, September 25, 2014
I have been struggling so much lately. Struggling to find peace. Knowing half my family is on the other side of the world. Knowing that the process of bringing them home isn't going to be an easy one. Knowing that leaving to go get them means leaving my first born behind and knowing that will be even harder than I can imagine. So, as I said, I'm struggling. I try and cling to Gods peace and know that He is in control and I do know that He is, but it doesn't make this waiting much easier. I am a mother, and my sons are not with me. How do you find comfort in that? It is so hard but I'm trying....
Posted by Natassia Butler at 8:19 PM
Friday, September 12, 2014
We are so happy that we got to share with family and friends 2 weekends ago that
WE GOT OUR REFERRAL!!
We finally got our paperwork and are so excited to announce that we are adopting twin boys from Uganda. They are just under a year old and we are now praying hard that we can go get them soon before courts close again around Christmas. This whole process has been long and extremely hard. When you start the adoption process you are told these things but until you are faced with them yourself its hard to imagine. Just like I can't imagine how it will be to actually go get them and stay there for 6+ weeks. I have been talking to and reading blogs about families who have and are currently in the process of adopting. That has been a huge blessing.
So, where we are now- Now we wait some more. We are waiting to heard from a judge when our court date is so we can go over and get our boys. This waiting process is by hard been the hardest. We now know who our boys are and to not be able to do much for them is extremely difficult. As a mom you want to tend to and care for your childs needs and make sure they are cared for. We are an ocean away and I can't hold them, or rock them or make sure they have what they need. Its killing me. So I pray, I pray God watches over them until we can get there. I pray they get the food they need (we are paying for formula for them now) and I pray they get their health back up.
We are coming boys- and mommy & daddy can't wait to love on you.
Monday, August 18, 2014
Oh this boy of mine.
I am so smittened by him.
To hear him sing just melts my heart.
I am so blessed to have him in my life and call him my son.
I pray he grows up to be a godly man, following the path God has planned for him. I pray he stands strong in the truth and sticks up for others. I pray he is always kind, caring and one day a strong and loving husband.
Happy Birthday Beebop!
I love you Nolan
Fix My Eyes
Posted by Natassia Butler at 10:46 AM
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Once again I stare at our nursery wondering and imaging what it might look like 6 months from now... Picturing how it will be set up and the nights I will spend in it.
I lay here unable to sleep, praying for my family and the changes that we so hope for. What will happen, when will we go, how long will I be over there without the other half of my family... The unknown is hard for me to handle. I am a planner. I like to map out the possibilities and know my options. I like to be in control... This is me not in control... I know God is teaching me to fully trust. To open my heart to the unknown and to pray; pray like I've never prayed before. He is teaching me and helping me grow in Him. I just don't always remember to listen and learn what He is showing me. I get frustrated, upset and sometimes angry. I think things are unfair and don't make sense... BUT deep down I know that He has a plan and His plan is FAR FAR greater than my own.
Someone shared this (below) tonight and it was such a blessing to read. God used her to talk to me and give me a great reminder and a good cry.
We Gotta have faith!! (And now that song is in my head)
Thanks for your prayers, love and support!!