Monday, August 18, 2014

My first born son, how I love you! Happy Birthday!

Oh this boy of mine.
I am so smittened by him. 
He is so kind, caring, gentle and hyper all in the same breath. He gives the best monster hugs and fish kisses. He always wants mommy when he is upset or hurt or had had a bad dream. He loves saying hi to strangers and making friends and he love, I mean LOVES, to be outside. Loves to learn and travel. At 3 he knew all his states, their names, shapes and where they belong. He adores his cousins, "Vayda Bray" & "Ryppy".  He loves helping Papaw in the yard and climbing trees. He always wants to help Mimi water flowers. He begs for Paps to take him on the "roundy roundy swing" or golf cart, and he simply dreams of going to "Grammys pool". He prays daily for Grandpa Harry and loves being with family. He loves to sing and our favorite song right now is "Fix My Eyes" by For King & Country 
To hear him sing just melts my heart. 
I am so blessed to have him in my life and call him my son.

I pray he grows up to be a godly man, following the path God has planned for him. I pray he stands strong in the truth and sticks up for others. I pray he is always kind, caring and one day a strong and loving husband. 

Happy Birthday Beebop! 
I love you Nolan

Our song


Fix My Eyes
Hit rewind
Click delete
Stand face to face with the younger me
All of the mistakes
All of the heartbreak
Here's what I'd do differently 

I'd love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you 

I learned the lines and talked the talk
(everybody knows that, everybody knows that)
But the road less traveled is hard to walk
(everybody knows that, everybody knows)
It takes a soldier
Who knows his orders
To walk the walk I'm supposed to walk 

And love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you 

The things of Earth are dimming
In the light of Your glory and grace
I'll set my sights upon Heaven
I'm fixing my eyes on you
I'm fixing my eyes on you
I'm fixing my eyes 

Love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you
I fix my eyes on you
I fix my eyes on you


Tuesday, August 12, 2014

How to know what NOT to say to adoptive parents

This is just perfect! Ha
If you wouldn't say it about a boob job....


video



The unknown...

Once again I stare at our nursery wondering and imaging what it might look like 6 months from now... Picturing how it will be set up and the nights I will spend in it.
I lay here unable to sleep, praying for my family and the changes that we so hope for. What will happen, when will we go, how long will I be over there without the other half of my family... The unknown is hard for me to handle. I am a planner. I like to map out the possibilities and know my options. I like to be in control... This is me not in control... I know God is teaching me to fully trust. To open my heart to the unknown and to pray; pray like I've never prayed before. He is teaching me and helping me grow in Him. I just don't always remember to listen and learn what He is showing me. I get frustrated, upset and sometimes angry. I think things are unfair and don't make sense... BUT deep down I know that He has a plan and His plan is FAR FAR greater than my own. 

Someone shared this (below) tonight and it was such a blessing to read. God used her to talk to me and give me a great reminder and a good cry. 



We Gotta have faith!! (And now that song is in my head) 

Thanks for your prayers, love and support!!

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

A Light at the end of the tunnel

It will be two years, at the end of this year, since we started our adoption journey to Uganda and even longer since God put in on our hearts.
About 8 weeks ago we got a call that they were working on our adoption and that we were number 1 on the list. So currently they are working on getting children paperwork ready for those of us who are waiting.  My cousin is also adopting from there and she was told the same thing. How awesome would it be to be able to travel to Uganda with her and her husband as well!
So now we wait some more. We were told to be ready to travel any time from September-December (which probably means Jan- March 2015- everything has been taking longer than they say/hope) BUT there is a light at the end of our tunnel and I know my boy is there now! Oh my heart aches for him and I have a hard time sleeping at night, I am so excited and nervous all at once.  I will be traveling to Uganda with my husband, but I will be staying for 6 weeks and he will have to come back home for work. Its going to be a long, hard, exciting journey and I'm ready.

While I wait I am keeping busy and working on an adoption line of jewelry as well as custom orders and adding some new things to my etsy shop- Nat's Knapsack
All the proceeds are going to go towards our adoption. With me as a stay at home mom I want to do what I can to help and this is how I felt I could help.
So if you know of anyone looking for a special piece of jewelry and a good reason to shop, send them my way.






Tuesday, April 1, 2014

A mommy cry

Sometimes as a mom I need a good big cry. In those moments I need to cry out to my Father and open my heart to His comfort and grace.
Today was a beautiful and rough day. It was a day that, in the end, I needed a good big cry. As I sat down and had my moment, I put on headphones and pandora... This song came on and was truly my hearts cry.

Plumb- Need you now
Well, everybody's got a story to tell
And everybody's got a wound to be healed
I want to believe there's beauty here
'Cause oh, I get so tired of holding on
I can't let go, I can't move on
I want to believe there's meaning here

How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this?"
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now

Standing on a road I didn't plan
Wondering how I go to where I am
I'm trying to hear that still small voice
I'm trying to hear above the noise

How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this?"
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now

Though I walk,
Though I Walk through the shadows
And I, I am so afraid
Please stay, Please stay right beside me
With every single step I take

How many times have you heard me cry out?
And how many times have you given me strenth?

How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this?"
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.

I need you now
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.
I need you now
I need you now