Monday, December 8, 2014

Gods got this!

Today was a long, long day. But it was a good day and one that I know God has His hand in. 
Today we had our document check appointment at the U.S. Embassy. But let's start at the beginning of this whole process... And let's start with myself, mom and the boys heading out for our first safari Friday morning around 6:30am. We had just had the boys IOM check up appointment Thursday and were told it would take around a week for all the paperwork to reach the embassy and for us to get our document check appointment. (The IOM paperwork process started Tuesday but it's about 5 days from the last appt that everything usually gets to the embassy) So we planned a safari for the weekend. It takes about 6-7 hours to get out to Parra Lodge and the road was bumpy (that's an understandment) but it was beautiful! We set up some cushions on the floor of the van and the boys slept some. It was a great idea! 
After a couple hours we arrived at a restaurant to have breakfast.

The place was amazing and it's where some famous people stayed while filming some Africa movie haha (you like those details- well my brain is barely working so that's all I have right now) :) 
So anyway, we headed to the lodge and once we entered the park we saw some of the. Most. Amazing...
Termit hills!! I was so excited for the trip and these mounts just amazed me. Haha
We also saw baboons along the road. And we stopped at Murchison Falls- it was beautiful!! 

(And another "ant" hill- that's what we thought they were)

Anyway- onto the safari and then the details of today.

The safari was amazing! We saw elephants, giraffes, some kind of buffalo, all sorts of antelope, baboons, hippos, a rabbit and a rat. 

We also saw this tree that my mom thought people hung actual sausage in.
That was pretty funny!
I will have to show you more pictures of our safari later.
So as we are waiting on the ferry, Joe calls me and asks if I have internet access and if I have seen the email. We got an an email stating our document check appointment was scheduled for Monday at 11am! We could not believe it! Unfortunately I didn't have my documents I needed for the appt yet from my attorney..
So last night (Sunday night) we had arrived back from the safari, and Patrick dropped off my file at midnight. I was so exhausted! I had to leave it for the morning- there was no way I would be able to look at it all then. So I went to bed around 12:30. the boys had a rough night and both had me up at 5! By 7 I had them back down again, grabbed my files and started going through them. It was a stressful morning. I had myself all worked up and felt sick but God worked everything out!!
So the 4 of us- Myself, my mom and the boys arrived around 10:45 am to make sure we were on time for the 11am appt.  We were seen around 11:30 and I had everything but their 2x2 passport photos. I could not find them! All I had were the small ones. So the lady said they would look over my file and I had 30 minutes to go get new ones reprinted and return to the embassy. I was anxious let me tell you, but the lady was very nice about it. We hopped back in the car and went back to the photo place to get more copies of the 2x2 photos. (Ps- I found my originals while waiting back in line at the embassy, AFTER I went and had more made lol)! Oh and I also had some spelling errors in my file but because I got it the day before there wasn't anything I could do but point them out during doc check. She didn't like "all" the errors (there were only 3) but she took it and made notes for me. So when I returned, I dropped off the passport photos, paid for the visas and she told me to come back at 3pm for my exit interview. Awesome!! So while I was dropping off the photos, the driver took my mom and the boys back to the house. Because after the document check I needed to go into town and see my lawyer so that I could go over everything and prepare for the exit interview. I got stuck in traffic but tried to stay calm knowing Gods got this!! He has brought me this far. 
After I talked with the lawyer for about 30 minutes I headed back to the house to get my mom and the boys for the exit interview at 3. We were so blessed to be seen the same day. 
So... The exit interview. Wow, talk about prayer. All the prayers surely calmed my nerves and I was ready! I was told to not let the embassy fluster me and to argue my case, I didn't have to do too much of that. He asked me questions about their story and mostly about what happened to the parents and why I didn't know more, or the family didn't know more.... We were in the tiny room for about 35-40  minutes and he told us to step out and he would call us back. After about 15 minutes he called us back in (mind you- this is a room not much wider than the door itself and has a glass window in it and you pass things back and forth like a teller window. You could maybe fit 4 adults standing in that room) 
Anyway, he said that he doesn't have any problem with their paperwork or their story but the twins grandmother has HIV so he wanted to boys tested (again) but by IOM this time instead of from the hospital. So now here we are. Everything went great, and this is something that can be easily done it just takes some time. We don't know how much time yet- it could go quickly. I will hopefully know more tomorrow when the lady calls me back to schedule an appt with IOM. After that, the results will be sent directly to IOM and they should issue the boys their visa's. 
So all in all- a great, exhausting day! 

Monday, December 1, 2014

When will I learn

Today I got overly emotional and angry and I shouldn't have. I was confused and upset and venting at all around me. I'm certainly not proud of myself. This process is confusing and one that you are not in control of. I think I am slowly learning that God is trying to teach me how to let go, stop making my own plans and just trust Him and His timing.  When will I finally learn?
We have been very lucky and very blessed to have all the help we do here, even when I don't realize it. 
So no more pouting, or venting and getting upset- now is the time to enjoy Uganda and these two sweet boys! 
Our IOM appointment is set for Thursday at 8am. 

Friday, November 28, 2014

Oh how He loves us

Three weeks
It's been three weeks since we came to Uganda to add to our family. Some days it feels like we have been here a year and other days it seems to go fast. Today was a slower day, a hard day, a beautiful day and a renewal day. Today I cried. I cried from all the ups and downs, from the love I have for these two sweet, ornery boys and the pure love and heart wrenching pain I have for my son back home. I broke down and needed God to pick me back up and you know what, He did. He gave me a husband who loves me, who comforts me, He sent my mom across an ocean to be here on this day who understands and he gave me a new friend to laugh with. 
God took care of me today. 
Oh how He loves us!

Oh how I miss him and his sweet smile, his silliness and giant hugs. 

Maddox & Maverick 

Rain, such beautiful rain

Today it rained, the sun shown through the clouds and it rained. We got the call this afternoon that the boys passports were ready and we needed to get down to the passport office as soon as possible. It was almost 3 and traffic was horrible. We weren't sure we would make it.... But first let me back up and show you how God works.
Today was Friday and today was our girls shopping day, or so it was supposed to be. My mom arrived last night and so this morning when the boys went down for a nap, me, mom & Christine went on a walk to the bakery for some coffee and to show mom around. The sun was shining then and it was a beautiful morning. Our plans were to all go out shopping around 2 if we hadn't gotten word about passports by noon. We scheduled a driver (Charles- who is amazing) and he was to arrive at 2. We had called him late so he was further away then we realized and at 2:30 he still wasn't here. Also at 2:30 Joe got the call that our passports were ready after all and he and I needed to head to the office. By 3 Charles was here and away we went, we made it there in record time, even with crazy traffic, God made a way. But do you see? I was supposed to be out shopping with the ladies at 2, I wouldn't have been around and ready to go to the passport office, God held up Charles in traffic to make him late so that he could take us to the office instead of the women out shopping. His hand is in it all. 
So then the rain came. What a beautiful and freeing rain it was. I can't really explain it. We were running through the rain, pretty much the only people (and only muzungus around) running through the rain with huge smiles on our faces as we tried to figure out which tent to go to and pick up our passports. That rain on my face actually felt amazing. I am not one to like to run around in the rain in wet clothes and today I Loved it! 
We finally had or boys passports. 

Monday, November 17, 2014

Waiting, waiting, waiting

Now we wait. We wait for the written ruling to be given to our attorney and for the word that the passport office needs to see us. Then once the passports have been applied for we wait some more and pray. We requested our blue form today (before we got our passport). Currently that is working, that's not to say that could change again. After we get our blue form we head to IOM for the boys medical checks. Then when the medical checks and passports come back we ask for an appointment at the embassy for document check then request our last embassy appointment for the boys visas! Then we head home. It all seems "easy" but it all takes so much time and everything must be PERFECT.
So as we wait we are focusing on the boys health. We want to get them super healthy so we stay around the house a lot. They eat, play, poop, eat, sleep repeat. :) Once they are 110% we may try and venture out more. So for now we pray things move quickly and the boys get stronger & stronger. It also costs to hire a driver so we figured we would do more things when Patrick calls and we have to do adoption related things Togo to as well. When you hire a driver it is the same price for 1 hour as it is for the entire day, and It all adds up fast. 
So while the boys are taking their second nap if the day, we relax, I blog and drink my coffee. I'm still so super excited I found it and my cup! Ha if you know me you know I don't go far without it. 

Thank you all for your prayers! I've been fighting a cold so I'm now taking the cipro we brought so hopefully that will kick in soon. Other than that we are doing pretty good. Just missing Nolan. 

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Off to the clinic

Today we took the boys to the clinic for a check up. We had a medical student who owns a pharmacy come to the house to check out the boys the other day. He gave them a different antibiotic to help with their cough and some vitamins for them but he reccomended taking them to the clinic to get checked out. My sweet, bubbly, laughing Maddox just isn't himself. Maverick however has been showing us his true colors and has completely opened up to us. He now smiles all the time and laughs and talks to his brother. They both melt your heart. 

Maverick is ticklish under his chin.
Maddox likes to rub his eye lashes or mommy's  when he is tired. 

So we took them to the clinic and they got a check up (no fevers!) and a CBC test done to see if we could find anything there. The boys are both fighting a viral infection and are slightly anemic. The best thing for them now is rest and nutrition. Lots and lots of food and liquids. 

The thing with the boys, and we found this out on monday when we met with our attorney, is that they were in worse condition than we knew about. At one point in August, when we found out the boys were in the hospital, the baby home director called our attorney and told her that she thought she was going to lose one or both of the boys. They were in really bad condition. They were malnourished, being treated for malaria and simply just so weak. This is when we found out the boys were in the hospital but no one told us how bad it was. We had everyone we knew praying for the boys and after a few weeks they gained some strength back and left the hospital for the baby home. They were in the hospital 3 different times, that we know about, in 6 months. In June when they came into the baby home they were almost 9 months old and only weighed around 10 & 11 lbs. They were and are tiny but oh so mighty! They are fighters and they are still fighting now. Right now they weigh somewhere between 12 & 15 lbs. and they are growing. You can certainly see a difference in Maverick. He was so tiny. 
We are very thankful to everyone for all your prayers and thankful to God for keeping our boys alive and watching over them. One day I hope they look back and can see how Gods hands were on them. 
Please continue to pray for health for them both. 

Oh and on a different note- Joe rode his first boda boda today! I was so proud of him! We needed to get something to the clinic and the best and quickest way was by boda and he did it! I'm ready for it to be my turn. :) that and I want to try the grasshoppers. Things on my Uganda bucket list. 

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Court Day November 12, 2014

Another "wow, what a day" day :)
Today was court day. Our appointment was at 2:30 and our driver wanted to make sure we weren't late so he scheduled to pick us up at 1. 
So the morning was pretty laid back. The boys woke at 6:30, ate and we're back to sleep around 8 for about 30 minutes. Once they woke up we brought them downstairs to play while we finished breakfast. 
We sort of goofed off a bit too long and all of a sudden needed to get ready. As soon as I started to get ready the power went off. But you know, that's ok, I wasn't going to let that bother me, and I didn't really need power for anything anyway.  We got ready and since the traffic wasn't very bad our driver gave us more time to gather things and load up. We packed extra clothes for the boys just in case, formula, snacks, diapers, and water for us. Then we headed to the court house. When we arrived it certainly wasn't like anything I expected. There were guards at the front and then you waiting outside by the van until our attorney came and got us and told us we needed to hurry and get inside because he was ready for us and wanted to get us in quickly between another case. We ended up being in there only 20 minutes, we stood when he said our names and he asked us only one question- "where are you from in the US".  Joe answered and that was about all that was said from us. Our attorney is very good and she had everything prepared perfectly. They talked so quietly I couldn't really understand what was being said. After it was done he asked our attorney when we were going to leave. She explained to him that we would like this expedited because of the boys health and he asked us what day we would like the ruling and then said "would monday be fine?". Wow, um yes! I didn't really know if we were suppose to answer but I smiled and shook my head. After we said thank you (softly) and left.
Outside we talked with the 2 uncles and Hillary (the lady at the baby home). We took some pictures and talked about coming to visit the one uncle and grandma after we get the visas if we can...
That was it for us. Our attorney will pick up the written ruling monday (if all goes as planned) and we will legally have guardianship of the boys. Next we have to apply for passports and wait.
It was a good day! 

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Relaxation day

Oh this was a much needed relaxation day. I was up from 3-5, boys woke at 6:30, ate and fell asleep until we all woke at 9! Wow! We missed breakfast but it was so nice to sleep in knowing there was nothing we had to do today but spend time with the boys. 
So once we got ready we hitched a ride with Herb & Harriet to the nearest bakery and walked back after. 
It was a beautiful morning! I still wasn't feeling the best but after a little something to eat and a walk back to the house, I was feeling much better! I also stopped taking my malaria medicine last night. It was making me feel gross and dizzy. I had lost my appetite so I was weak to top it off.  It just wasn't worth it. Here in Uganda they have medicine that can easily take care of it if I get sick. 
The sites along the way are simply amazing. Simplicity and friendly people! Joe is also now known as Salonga Joe. Which means father of twins. (I am Nalonga Natassia- mother of twins) 
Sites on our walk back
The gate to Herb & Ellens & the outside- our balcony is currently the second (& third) from the left (top)

It was a good day! Maverick has really stared to open up. He now smiles and laughs alongside his brother. Maddox was much quicker to get to smile. He gave us a smile on day two when I was pumping his legs. It was such a precious moment. I can't wait to show pictures of their beautiful smiles!
We have been learning so much about the boys the last few days. 

Maverick: he loves peach & blueberry puffs, bananas, and drinking his milk from a cup- not a bottle. He had been more quiet up until today. He will let me feed him anything. He is a big snuggler and cries when we put him down for naps if he isn't fully asleep. 

Maddox: he is not a big fan of puffs or bananas, although be ate one sunday, he hasn't touched it since. He does not like to be fed and always wants to do it himself. So much so that he will spit out whenever I put in his mouth, look at it and then possibly eat it. He loves to smile and we think he is going to be quite onery.

They are both changing so much! 
When we first got them they didn't make a sound. They just held on and snuggled up to us. Maverick was very cautious, Maddox was too but not as long. 
They were both sick the first few nights/days we had them and on the first night they had temperatures of 102 and Maverick shot up to 103 (rectal temp). It was a scary night. 
Thankfully they are slowly getting better.

Saturday, November 8, 2014

We finally meet!

Written 11.11.14
Wow, so much has happened since my last post. I was going to blog more but 1- my computer died and 2- I have been a bit busy. :) 
So let me start with the baby home. (11.8.14)  Even driving there it didn't seem real. The roads were rough and got even worse as we came close to the home. Once we arrived I saw a gate that I had seen before in pictures and I knew we were there. My heart started to pound and I was excited and nervous all at once. 
Oh the children. I wanted to love on each and every one of them. They were all so precious and beautiful. One of the first little boys I saw grabbed me, looked up and said "mamma". Oh my heart! I wanted to scoop him up and squeeze him but I also wanted to be careful and not confuse them. I honestly wasn't sure what to do. As we were greeter by all the kids they were calling us and asking us to come inside, this is where we thought the boys would be. Once we got into the tiny room inside, there were 3 couches and 2 chairs and we were told to sit. After a little bit Patrick informed us that they weren't expecting us until next Friday and they had taken the boys to the clinic to be checked out for a cough. So while we waited we just couldn't help but love on the kids. There were a couple of boys I wanted to find and meet and take pictures of, and wow, when you get your phone out to take pictures they all get so excited and we were swarmed with children. I have so many pictures of these beautiful kids. 

After we waited a while it got really warm inside and so we decided to step back outside and play while we waited for the boys to be brought to us. I had also packed some balloons for the kids and we asked if we could blow them up- I thought it might be best if I went in the van to blow them all up before we got them out- I got only 2 balloons blown up when I saw 2 caregivers walking in with the boys. I immediately stopped, threw the 2 balloons out and turned and starred- there they were. I almost froze. Our beautiful twin boys- and wow did they look a like. We greeted her and she turned to me and looked at this tiny baby and said "this is your momma" and handed me Wasswa. Time sort of stopped, they brought Kato over and Joe wanted to take him but asked if I wanted to hold both but I let him have one. It seemed only fair ;)
Again, I couldn't believe it. Here they were, one in my arms and one in Joe's. 
They asked us to come sit down so they could talk with us and also explain the clinic visit. They had medicine to give us for the boys and we wanted to thank them for caring for them for the last 6 months. There were tears, hugs, pictures and prayers. They children all gathered and prayed for Wasswa (Maverick) & Kato (Maddox) and they sang. It was beautiful. Joe then asked to pray as well before we left and there were more tears from this momma. 
We had our boys and we were allowed to take them with us. Oh, they did ask us when we had them if we wanted to take them today- neither one of us hesitate and we both, together, said yes. There was no way we were ever leaving them. Joe even said, if we can't take them today then we are staying the night there- they all laughed. 
It was a perfect afternoon and we were smittened. 
Now off to the store for formula & diapers. (We were told huggies are the best here- not pampers. So we have  huggies and later needed to buy 7 days. They both work fine.) 
We both agreed that it would have been better to have gone before we got the boys but we didn't know what size diaper or what formula to buy so we waited. It sure felt like it took forever at the store because all I wanted to do was get them back to the house and love on them. They snuggled right in and Kato fell asleep in my arms. 
This momma was in love! 

I have more to share and that will come later in another post and hopefully soon-- pictures :) 

The day we have been waiting so long for.

Our first full day here- Saturday November 8th
I cannot believe this day is here. Last night we arrived in Entebbe around 10:30pm and was met at the airport by our driver Patrick and our friends Kara & Melody. We came with gifts from home and they came bringing goodies for us. (Thank you!!!) :) After a short drive (maybe around 30 minutes) we arrived at our B&B, Alirikos. 
Patrick called the gate keeper and he let us in and the men (including Herb) helped us with our luggage. It was late so everyone was quiet but so friendly. We made it to our room, I unpacked some and we settled into our netted beds. Oh how Nolan would love his "tent" if he were here. We were both a little wired so we took a sleeping pill and started a movie on the iPad as we both fell asleep. 
As morning came, surprisingly enough we both slept in. I figured we would struggle to sleep, but that unisom did the trick. :) We talked to Patrick last night and knew that he wouldn't be back until 2 to take us to the baby home and meet the boys. So the morning has been filled with unpacking, an attempt at a bath, some breakfast and making new friends.  It's noon now and shortly lunch will be served. After lunch we need to venture out and get a few things (including a pre paid cell phone and Internet access). 
The day is here and our lives are about to change forever!!  We cannot wait to meet the twins.

A picture of our room and the beautiful view! 

Friday, November 7, 2014

Traveling note for Amsterdam

Traveling note to those adopting or traveling through Amsterdam. This might be an odd note and known to most, but it was not something we knew about. When landing in Amsterdam, you will go through security again before you can sit in your designated area and board. So don't order too much coffee or water because you will have to chug it or dump it if you don't have a lot of time between flights.

Fyi- Kristi, you walk from one end to another (depending on your gate) give yourself time with all the kiddos. ;) 

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Here we go

November 6, 2014
I have to say that it is really hard to put into words how I'm feeling today... This morning things were crazy, I hugged, kissed and said goodbye to my four year old without tears. I honestly felt kinda numb, and I felt guilty for it. There was so much going on, packing, double checking and loading. So, we said our goodbyes and headed to the airport shortly after he left. At check in we met a man who was adopted himself and another man who has two adopted children from the U.S. It was God speaking to us through them and it was awesome. We went through security fine, grabbed some food and after a while boarded our first plane. I still hadn't cried or really thought about what was happening... It wasn't until we started to taxi, I lost it. It's like I had nothing else I needed to do and my body just let go. There were tears for Nolan and the thought of not being there for him if he needed me and tears for Maverick & Maddox and how we are actually going to meet them soon. So many emotions all at once. I could do nothing but be held by Joe and cry. Thanking God for him and for allowing us to go on this journey. We are finally going to meet our twins!
We are blessed. 

Thank you all for the prayers! We can surely feel them! 

Now we relax in Detroit and wait for our next long flight to Amsterdam.  

Monday, October 27, 2014

Answered Prayers

I really want to share with you how God has moved throughout our whole adoption process. This process has taken about 3 years. 1 year listening to God and waiting to see where He would take us and 2 of which we have spent filling out piles of paperwork, getting fingerprinted umpteen times, medical exams, home studies, updates etc. All to lead us to now. Throughout the paperwork process there were times where I wasn't sure how we would make the deadlines and where the money would come from. God always supplied it and one time He truly put money in our bank, the numbers did not add up and I know He put it there. He worked a miracle for us.
He would move and comfort me through each step. Just when I would feel I couldn't wait any longer and my hope was running out, He would give me a slight glimpse of His plan and remind me to trust Him. It turns out, He knew what He was doing. ;)
God did this again with our court date. As you may have read we got a court date earlier this month, but let me back up a bit and tell you how God answered my prayers.  In late September/early October we were asked if we were ok with a Possible December court date (they were hoping to get us in) but that would mean we would be gone over Christmas (separated from Nolan) and because of the holidays, the process may take longer (8 weeks instead of 6 or 7). We, of course, said yes. We want to get over to them as soon as possible. They are very small, and have been in and out of the hospital and need cared for and loved on by their mommy & daddy. (Not that the home isn't doing all it can for them, they have been great!) So we planned for what we thought might be a December court date. During that time I continued to pray that God would move and take me over to my boys sooner, even that he would allow me to be there for their birthday (Nov 5th). It was a long shot, and not even a possibility in the eyes of our agency, but on October 12th, we got the call that we would be there just days after the twins birthday. We needed to be in country in less than a month- Nov 7th actually. Our court dates is set for Nov 12th, and we are asked to be in Uganda a few days prior for some culture training and to bond with the boys before court. November 7th we land in Uganda, just 2 days after their birthday! God answered my prayer! One that I thought was impossible.

To share a prayer with you; I have a devotional I am reading called "Live A Praying Life In Adversity" by Jennifer Kennedy Dean
As I was reading today I looked back, remembering I had written prayers in the pages and dated them. We knew we were waiting on all our paperwork to be reviewed and for a date to be set.
On 10.6.14 I wrote a small prayer "Dear God, I pray you be with the lawyers, judges & social workers in Uganda. Help them get things moving 'this week' so we can go get our boys." That was on monday and Sunday evening (the 12th) everything was set and we had our date. ANSWERED PRAYER!
So now I pray, and ask that God get us there safely, that He moves again and pushes paperwork through faster than we could imagine and bring us all home to be a family of 5.
I would love for you to pray with me.

We are so excited to finally meet our boys. We leave in 10 days. We will arrive late Nov 7th, sleep, and in the morning get up and go meet our twin boys- Maverick & Maddox.  God is good, all the time! (even when we can't see it and understand it)

Monday, October 13, 2014

We got our court date

I am so extremely excited to scream that WE GOT OUR COURT DATE!! We will be in Uganda on Nov 7th, and we have our court date on Nov 12th. We will get to meet and hold Maverick & Maddox in less than a month. God is so good! I have been praying specifically that God would take us over there for the boys birthdays and we will be there just days after. What a journey it has been and what a journey we are about to embark on.

I am so thankfully to all of you for your support, prayers and encouraging words.

We are currently having a t-shirt fundraiser.
If you would like to help, and want to buy a t-shirt all proceeds go towards our adoption. (Email me at butleradoption(at)gmail(dot)com)
If you feel led to give a donation instead you can click this link HERE

We appreciate your prayers! God is moving and He is doing great things!
To follow our process in country, I will be posting updates as best I can here on my blog.

Here is a look at the shirts.

You can give hope. No matter your walk in life.
Whether you are black or white, young or old, male or female...
Give Hope
Hope changes Everything

Thank you all for your prayers and support! We can't wait to meet our boys and bring them home.

Thursday, September 25, 2014


I have been struggling so much lately. Struggling to find peace. Knowing half my family is on the other side of the world. Knowing that the process of bringing them home isn't going to be an easy one. Knowing that leaving to go get them means leaving my first born behind and knowing that will be even harder than I can imagine. So, as I said, I'm struggling. I try and cling to Gods peace and know that He is in control and I do know that He is, but it doesn't make this waiting much easier. I am a mother, and my sons are not with me. How do you find comfort in that? It is so hard but I'm trying....

Friday, September 12, 2014

Our Little Secret is Out

We are so happy that we got to share with family and friends 2 weekends ago that 
We finally got our paperwork and are so excited to announce that we are adopting twin boys from Uganda. They are just under a year old and we are now praying hard that we can go get them soon before courts close again around Christmas. This whole process has been long and extremely hard. When you start the adoption process you are told these things but until you are faced with them yourself its hard to imagine. Just like I can't imagine how it will be to actually go get them and stay there for 6+ weeks. I have been talking to and reading blogs about families who have and are currently in the process of adopting. That has been a huge blessing.
So, where we are now- Now we wait some more. We are waiting to heard from a judge when our court date is so we can go over and get our boys. This waiting process is by hard been the hardest. We now know who our boys are and to not be able to do much for them is extremely difficult. As a mom you want to tend to and care for your childs needs and make sure they are cared for. We are an ocean away and I can't hold them, or rock them or make sure they have what they need. Its killing me. So I pray, I pray God watches over them until we can get there. I pray they get the food they need (we are paying for formula for them now) and I pray they get their health back up. 
We are coming boys- and mommy & daddy can't wait to love on you. 

Monday, August 18, 2014

My first born son, how I love you! Happy Birthday!

Oh this boy of mine.
I am so smittened by him. 
He is so kind, caring, gentle and hyper all in the same breath. He gives the best monster hugs and fish kisses. He always wants mommy when he is upset or hurt or had had a bad dream. He loves saying hi to strangers and making friends and he love, I mean LOVES, to be outside. Loves to learn and travel. At 3 he knew all his states, their names, shapes and where they belong. He adores his cousins, "Vayda Bray" & "Ryppy".  He loves helping Papaw in the yard and climbing trees. He always wants to help Mimi water flowers. He begs for Paps to take him on the "roundy roundy swing" or golf cart, and he simply dreams of going to "Grammys pool". He prays daily for Grandpa Harry and loves being with family. He loves to sing and our favorite song right now is "Fix My Eyes" by For King & Country 
To hear him sing just melts my heart. 
I am so blessed to have him in my life and call him my son.

I pray he grows up to be a godly man, following the path God has planned for him. I pray he stands strong in the truth and sticks up for others. I pray he is always kind, caring and one day a strong and loving husband. 

Happy Birthday Beebop! 
I love you Nolan

Our song

Fix My Eyes
Hit rewind
Click delete
Stand face to face with the younger me
All of the mistakes
All of the heartbreak
Here's what I'd do differently 

I'd love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you 

I learned the lines and talked the talk
(everybody knows that, everybody knows that)
But the road less traveled is hard to walk
(everybody knows that, everybody knows)
It takes a soldier
Who knows his orders
To walk the walk I'm supposed to walk 

And love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you 

The things of Earth are dimming
In the light of Your glory and grace
I'll set my sights upon Heaven
I'm fixing my eyes on you
I'm fixing my eyes on you
I'm fixing my eyes 

Love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you
I fix my eyes on you
I fix my eyes on you

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

How to know what NOT to say to adoptive parents

This is just perfect! Ha
If you wouldn't say it about a boob job....

The unknown...

Once again I stare at our nursery wondering and imaging what it might look like 6 months from now... Picturing how it will be set up and the nights I will spend in it.
I lay here unable to sleep, praying for my family and the changes that we so hope for. What will happen, when will we go, how long will I be over there without the other half of my family... The unknown is hard for me to handle. I am a planner. I like to map out the possibilities and know my options. I like to be in control... This is me not in control... I know God is teaching me to fully trust. To open my heart to the unknown and to pray; pray like I've never prayed before. He is teaching me and helping me grow in Him. I just don't always remember to listen and learn what He is showing me. I get frustrated, upset and sometimes angry. I think things are unfair and don't make sense... BUT deep down I know that He has a plan and His plan is FAR FAR greater than my own. 

Someone shared this (below) tonight and it was such a blessing to read. God used her to talk to me and give me a great reminder and a good cry. 

We Gotta have faith!! (And now that song is in my head) 

Thanks for your prayers, love and support!!

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

A Light at the end of the tunnel

It will be two years, at the end of this year, since we started our adoption journey to Uganda and even longer since God put in on our hearts.
About 8 weeks ago we got a call that they were working on our adoption and that we were number 1 on the list. So currently they are working on getting children paperwork ready for those of us who are waiting.  My cousin is also adopting from there and she was told the same thing. How awesome would it be to be able to travel to Uganda with her and her husband as well!
So now we wait some more. We were told to be ready to travel any time from September-December (which probably means Jan- March 2015- everything has been taking longer than they say/hope) BUT there is a light at the end of our tunnel and I know my boy is there now! Oh my heart aches for him and I have a hard time sleeping at night, I am so excited and nervous all at once.  I will be traveling to Uganda with my husband, but I will be staying for 6 weeks and he will have to come back home for work. Its going to be a long, hard, exciting journey and I'm ready.

While I wait I am keeping busy and working on an adoption line of jewelry as well as custom orders and adding some new things to my etsy shop- Nat's Knapsack
All the proceeds are going to go towards our adoption. With me as a stay at home mom I want to do what I can to help and this is how I felt I could help.
So if you know of anyone looking for a special piece of jewelry and a good reason to shop, send them my way.

Friday, May 9, 2014

Adoption Update

Dated: may 2014
Hey everyone! I know I've been asked a lot lately about an update and so I am here to give you one.
Our update is really that there is no update. Man is this a hard and long journey. I contacted the agency this week to see if they had any further news for us and they really didn't. 
The one thing she told me was that the families in front of us have requested either siblings or a young baby so that gives me some hope, but the likelyhood of anything happening anytime soon is slim to none. 
Right now in Uganda the courts are changing again and things have slowed down yet again. I'm not sure if this is normal for an agency to really have nothing to tell us, or if it's just ours. Either way, there isn't much we can do but pray. 
I do know that God has His perfect timing and a plan for our family and lives but honestly I still struggle. It's a hard thing to hope for when there is little to do. My heart longs for a bigger family but I am so thankful for the one I have now. I am very blessed and sometimes I just need a reminder of that. :) 

Thanks for asking and thank you for your prayers during this waiting period. 

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

A mommy cry

Sometimes as a mom I need a good big cry. In those moments I need to cry out to my Father and open my heart to His comfort and grace.
Today was a beautiful and rough day. It was a day that, in the end, I needed a good big cry. As I sat down and had my moment, I put on headphones and pandora... This song came on and was truly my hearts cry.

Plumb- Need you now
Well, everybody's got a story to tell
And everybody's got a wound to be healed
I want to believe there's beauty here
'Cause oh, I get so tired of holding on
I can't let go, I can't move on
I want to believe there's meaning here

How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this?"
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now

Standing on a road I didn't plan
Wondering how I go to where I am
I'm trying to hear that still small voice
I'm trying to hear above the noise

How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this?"
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now

Though I walk,
Though I Walk through the shadows
And I, I am so afraid
Please stay, Please stay right beside me
With every single step I take

How many times have you heard me cry out?
And how many times have you given me strenth?

How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this?"
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.

I need you now
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.
I need you now
I need you now

Sunday, January 26, 2014


Oh what a great reminder.
For me it is definitely our adoption and dream of a big family one day.
How great our God is

What about you?

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Polar Vortex Projects

Well winter has finally gotten the best of me. I go stir crazy being inside and it ends up with too my pinterest and a lot of moving things around. :) Today I was actually productive and hung up all my pictures and frames that have been in a pile waiting for a house. I must say, it was quite fun and i'm pretty proud of myself. (Can I say that)

My project started on the floor, in a giant mess. What to use and not use

After that I tried placing them on the ground in the arrangement I wanted. The problem I had with that was that my floor was not as big as my wall. I was running into things. So even though I loved it on the floor, it wouldn't fit on the wall. and that simply doesn't work now does it. 

Next I decided to trace and cut out the frames I wanted to use and tape them to the wall. 
This worked out amazingly

I was able to place them and step back and have a look. Then when it was time to hang them I could hammer my nail right into the paper and tear it down after. 

When I first started out all I had on this giant wall was one giant mirror that I had hoped to decorate around. When I took it down i had no intention of using it again on this wall. I actually taped off a space for a large (24x28) picture and frame I would like to have one day. 
Once everything was up, I couldn't be happier. It turned out perfect, but I needed to put the mirror back on the wall for safe keeping. I do have a 3 year old running around and this mirror is one heavy beast. Take a look - it actually fit with everything else

So fun

What have you been up to during this polar vortex?

Monday, January 13, 2014

Our second son

Well here we are, January 2014 and we are still waiting for news about who our son will be. It's been a year since we started the paperwork and it will most likely be another 6+ months before we bring home our little guy. During the last few months of waiting I needed something to help me through and so I finally talked my husband into letting us pick a name for our little guy. I wanted to call him by name, to pray for him by name. And so, we have named our sweet little unknown African boy, Maverick.

It is the most precious thing to hear Nolan say his brothers name when he prays for him. I also think it helps our 3 year old grasp having a brother just a little more. He still doesn't quite understand but this helps, and it helps me as well. I now have made 4 different pieces of jewelry with his name on it :) To wear my little family around my neck is such a blessing to me. And so there you have our small update. We don't have anything on time yet, but we have a name for him.

We would greatly appreciate your continuing prayers for our family and for Maverick. That God would bring him home to us soon and that He would keep him safe and let him know he is loved, wherever he may be.