My first born son, how I love you! Happy Birthday!

Oh this boy of mine.

I am so smittened by him. 

He is so kind, caring, gentle and hyper all in the same breath. He gives the best monster hugs and fish kisses. He always wants mommy when he is upset or hurt or had had a bad dream. He loves saying hi to strangers and making friends and he love, I mean LOVES, to be outside. Loves to learn and travel. At 3 he knew all his states, their names, shapes and where they belong. He adores his cousins, "Vayda Bray" & "Ryppy".  He loves helping Papaw in the yard and climbing trees. He always wants to help Mimi water flowers. He begs for Paps to take him on the "roundy roundy swing" or golf cart, and he simply dreams of going to "Grammys pool". He prays daily for Grandpa Harry and loves being with family. He loves to sing and our favorite song right now is "Fix My Eyes" by For King & Country 

To hear him sing just melts my heart. 

I am so blessed to have him in my life and call him my son.

I pray he grows up to be a godly man, following the path God has planned for him. I pray he stands strong in the truth and sticks up for others. I pray he is always kind, caring and one day a strong and loving husband. 

Happy Birthday Beebop! 

I love you Nolan

Our song

Fix My Eyes

Hit rewind
Click delete
Stand face to face with the younger me
All of the mistakes
All of the heartbreak
Here's what I'd do differently 

I'd love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you 

I learned the lines and talked the talk
(everybody knows that, everybody knows that)
But the road less traveled is hard to walk
(everybody knows that, everybody knows)
It takes a soldier
Who knows his orders
To walk the walk I'm supposed to walk 

And love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you 

The things of Earth are dimming
In the light of Your glory and grace
I'll set my sights upon Heaven
I'm fixing my eyes on you
I'm fixing my eyes on you
I'm fixing my eyes 

Love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you
I fix my eyes on you
I fix my eyes on you

How to know what NOT to say to adoptive parents

This is just perfect! Ha

If you wouldn't say it about a boob job....

The unknown...

Once again I stare at our nursery wondering and imaging what it might look like 6 months from now... Picturing how it will be set up and the nights I will spend in it.

I lay here unable to sleep, praying for my family and the changes that we so hope for. What will happen, when will we go, how long will I be over there without the other half of my family... The unknown is hard for me to handle. I am a planner. I like to map out the possibilities and know my options. I like to be in control... This is me not in control... I know God is teaching me to fully trust. To open my heart to the unknown and to pray; pray like I've never prayed before. He is teaching me and helping me grow in Him. I just don't always remember to listen and learn what He is showing me. I get frustrated, upset and sometimes angry. I think things are unfair and don't make sense... BUT deep down I know that He has a plan and His plan is FAR FAR greater than my own. 

Someone shared this (below) tonight and it was such a blessing to read. God used her to talk to me and give me a great reminder and a good cry. 

We Gotta have faith!! (And now that song is in my head) 

Thanks for your prayers, love and support!!